"How to make someone PSYCHOTIC"

(MY GOAL on this BLOG is TO SPEAK HONESTLY HOW I WAS TESTED TO BECOME CHRISTIAN,
and trust the Holy Spirit to give me self-control.)

I cannot completely speak out everything about the People in the industry of Music,
like especially this "Showbiz world" of RADIO.

I don't want to earn money from this, or make a controversy.

I would only want to explain my
SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCES about RADIO, TELEVISION and even OPM, music artists.

I am not too perfect when it comes to mind-power.
I am clearly not a MIND-READER, not even sure if I can receive TELEPATHIC messages, but I thought of maybe sharing my thoughts on somebody else.

I can't just assure that everything that I have encountered tremendously recently, as these "PSYCHIC ATTACKS" are completely from the influences of the RADIO.

My conscience is clear, I am not lying.
I am HONEST, to Goodness, I'm telling you, God knows everything.

My life recently have really tested me with how I can really manage to
maintain, not losing my mind, my temper, and my morals.

My mind, my heart, my soul, and my whole being, is what I'm sure, God can judge, alone.

Probably, I am a little bit of crazy, or maybe suffering from
PARANOIA, SCHIZOPHRENIA or SELF-HYPNOSIS.

I tell you, I really get OUT-OF-CONTROL of my system, at times.

I'm blogging, just to find somebody who can, at least tell me if they
can relate to me. I heard there are people, who are also "SPIRITUALLY
DISTURBED."

There are also many books about these, like "DELIVERANCE", "PSYCHIC POWERS",
"WAR OF THE MINDS".

Maybe, most of us, can understand this concept of MIND, having "VISIONS",
"VOICES",

I just can't understand, why would these "PSYCHIC INFLUENCES"
that comes to me, are so "devilish", like it has been manifestations of the DEVIL.

Satanic, Occultic, & Magic.

Mystics, could be the best description to these people involved.

Right now, I am at peace with my mind, and my whole body. Though, everytime I get under attack, I tend to lose control over my mind and my body.

I am not epileptic and autistic, to clear things out, but, the power that comes to me
like a trance is so hypnotically affecting my behavior, attitude, mentality and body.

I no longer like to consult to Psychiatrists regarding this matter.
I think I have had enough dose of the "XYPREZA" anti-depressants, I have had back in 2009.

I just can't go back to my previous psychiatrist, since I need money for some other stuff.

Many of my experiences, psychically, that came to me, are these:

1. I have frequent, speeches or words that comes out automatically from
my mouth. (I have read it is called TRANCE MEDIUMSHIP)
Whenever this happens, my words became, foul or bad words, and most often they are blasphemies or curses.)

2. I felt weirdly *sexually aroused* in the way, that my body then follows in such movement, like pushes me or pulls me to lay on bed. (These events really do eats up my energy.)

3. Whenever I feel that arousal, my "navel" or in tagalog "puson", feels squeezed tightly, and then i feel strange on my genitals, eventually when I feel pressed on my tummy, I secrete much of my white discharge.

(I know this is abnormal, I just don't know, who else in this world who is Christian, can realize this phenomena on NEW AGE?)

4. I can have nightmares often, even sleep-paralysis, or "bangunot", what is interesting about this, is whenever I get these bad dreams, I hear voices talking,
some speak in our native tongue, some of them speak in english.

5. My thoughts are sometimes, changing in an instant, like some other minds, can just swap their minds on me.

Do this thing, has to do with ILLUMINATI or FREEMASONRY?
I don't really know, I can't understand it all, but why are these things, take place, when these are like what has been fed on my mind, by the MEDIA.